As someone who was already skilled with remote viewing, or as I was informed by the beings I was in contact with was actually consciousness sharing, I was extremely interested in the arts of mediation and I quickly realized the benefits of a peaceful meditation where I could delve deep into myself and simply observe the quiet space between space and time and simply relax the stresses of life away.
I had learned much in the many sessions I had done over the space of a couple of years and I practiced the art of clearing and surrounding myself with light to make sure I was adequately protected from negative influences as I had been taught by the many sources I had encountered during my quest for understanding and knowledge.
I thought I was adequately protected and I had many sessions where I would drift deep within myself and simply relax at a tropical location which was very similar to this one.
I would sit in a chair in the tropical sun, feeling the sun on my face with the water lapping at my feet, relaxing and just letting time unwind. I would always come out of these meditations feeling relaxed and in tune with my inner self. I had developed a great relationship with this space knowing I was safe in this location and knowing it was a place where I could let my guard down. It went this way this way for months before something happened that startled me and caught me way off guard. I was introduced to a malevolent being by someone who popped in from nowhere. How this happened, and why, I still don't know. It changed my life forever though and to this day I still carry the scars, as well as a totally different view of life. The being I was introduced to looked very similar to this, which I have tried to replicate to the best of my limited abilities.
Spiderwoman
Needless to say I was stunned! I couldn't understand how something could invade my safe space I had created and surrounded with light and loving energy! Yet here was not only a strange man, but this creature I called spider woman. She reassured me everything was ok and after questioning myself I rationalized it must be alright they were here simply because of all the precautions I had taken for the meditation process. So I decided I could trust her. Very bad mistake!
She ended up taking me places I never in a million years would have guessed existed and did things to me, unknowingly, that I did not understand could be done to a human soul.
In the end, it was all about taking my energy and using it as she saw fit. As a being of light she saw and recognized me and simply took advantage of who I was for her own benefit.
It took a year and several meetings with some very skilled shamans to recover from this event and finally regain my sanity, in a very real sense. In the end, my mind and soul were finally cleared to the point I could hear my thoughts bouncing around in my head and the silence of self was so defining I really did not know if I was going to go clinically insane. After a period of two weeks I felt as if I was going to regain my sanity and a few more days after that I bounced back into my head, like it had been reset, to a period of time twenty years prior where I could not define the current date in time.
Bottom line, if someone tells you meditation is one hundred percent safe and foolproof, I would tell you be careful. Be wary of events that seem unusual or out of place. And be especially wary of individuals or creatures you may encounter and always take your shaman animal with you. They can alert you to situations that you may wish to stay out of. I wish I would have heeded that warning years ago. Sometimes things are just meant to be. Lesson learned. I still meditate today. It is still good for the soul if done with awareness. However, there are some things I don't do anymore. This experience has changed me forever and touched me physically with scars.
